So frustrated. I just want to be happy but
never can be because people in my life have to constantly fuck with my head.
I feel as if I do it to myself at times but then I realize I never asked to be treated like shit.
I hate this feeling; I hate sitting in my dorm room alone crying, praying, and hoping for a better tomorrow.
Why does he have to be so cruel and why do they regret having me so much?
It’s here. The day I’ve been waiting for quite some time. After pulling a 65 hour work week this past week on top of being a full time student I really hope my work has payed off. Everyone who can vote please vote tomorrow and change our president!! If you want a fresh take on things for the country vote for Mitt Romney tomorrow and be proud. Be proud that you want to elect someone who has strong moral values and believes in America and will actually do what he promises.
Aside from that I am so exhausted I’m knocking out because I have work in seven hours. I only got two hours yesterday night so it is time for me to sleep!
Wait just kidding I have homework. Kay bye Tumblr!
Life is so majestic, misleading, fun, different, confusing, crazy, amazing, strange, surreal I just don’t know what to make of it.
It seems that I can only be happy when certain people are in my life because they are my strength and support. I hate this. I hate feeling this way because then I seem weak and that’s just pathetic.
I want to move on in life but I feel that I keep fucking up, I keep making the same stupid decisions. I keep letting other people use me but I can’t stop it. I never say no, I waste my time to make others happy and I feel addicted to it. It’s as if I have to please everyone or else I’ll never be pleased with myself.
Just some reflecting upon myself. I need to find the inner me and honestly the more hippie-ish I become the closer I am to figuring this stuff out.
Well I guess I’ll start homework.
I feel as if it’s all coming back. I feel like crying constantly. I don’t know why I do this to myself. I know better but I just can’t help it I always give in and then I feel like a weak and stupid girl. Not a young strong woman.
I am so frustrated I really hope this mistake won’t haunt me.
I haven’t been on here as often as I was over summer but I’ve had a lot going on.
I’m really unsure of things in my life right now. The first week of college has been been really great on some levels and on others it’s been really shitty. I’m so frustrated with my family life STILL even though I live seven and a half hours away and I miss my friends.
I miss how we were just a car ride away. I know that it’s a part of the experience and eventually I’ll have a whole new group of friends that I can connect and have a great time with but for now I miss my friends.
Speaking about college now; classes are okay not too hard but not easy also, parties are fun, RA’s are chill as fuck, people are so much funner to talk to compared to the dumb asses in high school, I have so much more free time, and mostly I have FUCKING FREEDOM.
So that’s all for now I need to type my essay but yes college is great.